October 24th, 2025

 Ephesians 4...

Yeah, I was going to start listing various verses here but you really should read the chapter for yourself in its entirety.

Over the last few weeks I have been contacted by several people who have left my father's teaching and my heart breaks for each one of them.

Anger, hurt, resentment, bitterness and total turning away from anything God related. These are only some of the messages/conversations I have had with people since starting this blog.

What truly breaks my heart though, are the stories I hear from people who have completely turned their hearts cold towards the Lord and into atheism or the occult/New Ageism. To blame God for what a human being does is heartbreaking and I hope that one day these wounded souls will be touched and healed.

I can't explain why God has spared me from a complete turning away from the faith but I am so thankful...SO thankful for His faithfulness in leading me through some of the darkest of times.

Darkness will never consume the light, the light chases away darkness...every time.

Not every post here will be the most positive one, I am going through a lot in my life both physically and emotionally, but I hope that as you read each entry that you will see through the pain and struggles that I am still relying and leaning heavily on my heavenly Father. 

I am a broken vessel who will continue to grow and learn. I learn so much in the struggle and trial, may I never stop growing in my knowledge of my Lord and Savior.

That's all for today.

Love ya!

October 9, 2025

 It's hard to believe that this year is so close to ending! 

I've come to the conclusion, that I am incredibly inconsistent when it comes to writing or vlogging (on YouTube). I've been so doubtful of myself and concerned about writing my life, struggles and accomplishments, because of the possibility of rejection and/or criticism. I've found myself feeling mentally drained and spiritually weak at times, and don't really want to 'air my dirty laundry' to you guys...But I really need to get out of that mindset.

I'm pretty sure that I've said this in the past, in one way or another, but I am going to keep you guys in touch with what's going on in my life. The good, the bad and the amazing!

I am in a lot of physical pain and have been since having been severely injured by a cow at my job two years ago. So, with being in pain on the daily, my mental health and vitality aren't always 100%. 

But that's life, right? I'm sure that not a lot of you are having the greatest time of your life ALL the time. But hey, thankfully God is gracious and there is ALWAYS something to look at that will encourage us...even if its in the fact that we are able to see a little bird outside and are reminded of His creation and perfection.

And I must confess, I've been writing in a different blog but not one that is public. A lot of what is there has been written on some of my worst pain days, which is why I haven't really wanted to post where people can actually read it. But I will be posting those on here in the future. (You can join me in my suffering, right?) And I will NEVER say 'no' to prayer. I accept that anytime, day or night.

Love ya!

The Stars

One of the many things that I love about living in the country (and yes, the word 'many' doesn't do justice lol), 

is the fact that you can see the stars. Thousands and thousands of them...twinkling, shooting and falling from the sky in a gorgeous display of God's creation.

Because I work the night shift at a dairy farm, I am blessed to be able to see many prairie sunsets and the amazing stars on nearly every clear night. 

One night as I arrived home from work, I stood outside our home and just watched the skies. I regularly use this time to talk to God, my Father, this night was no different...until it was...

The emotions came rushing up, it was as if a tidal wave came from out of the literal blue and I was overcome with tears.

Why was this so intense, you might ask?

Well this night was the first of many nights where I, as a 40 something year old woman, was looking up and enjoying the stars 100% by choice!

This was not a time to escape the stress and violence that I've come to know as life, 

this was not a time where I was seeking release in order to cry out to God in desperation in the season I was in.

This was peace.

I don't know why I've not felt such peace prior to this night. Maybe my heart wasn't there yet, maybe I wasn't truly ready to accept it...until now.

I'm not saying that I've now 'succeeded' and that I've 'made it', because I most certainly have not and am nowhere near ready to say I'm even close. But God has now given me a massive window into what my future holds and I am excited to see what other 'moments' He will be giving me.

Love ya!